0914 looking back on my english

ah. I have been busy recently, so I was not able to write it. Overall I’m fine. I’m getting used to classes and dairy life. But still cannot enjoy conversation with my friends. In terms of conversation, listening and speaking skills are very important. Looking back on my conversation, I find my vocabulary is definitely very poor. I think I can acquire vocabularies by reading books or taking classes. The lack of vocabulary means just I was lazy to remember them. It was absolutely my fault. I think preparing for classes very politely is the basic of studying at the university. I have been studying very seriously and getting great scores in exams in Japan. What I need to have confident is to keep studying seriously for 3 years. Also my faculty was famous for its difficulties of getting credits, in this circumstances, I have kept getting good scores. Should proud of myself at this point. Indeed, i still cannot use English very well, but I know how to study and how to suffer and overcome these disciplines especially when you face some academic things. If my friends can do it, I also can do it. Now id like to look back my speaking. I realized speaking was much more difficult than listening. Trying to avoid feeling ashamed, I spoke much less than usual. No one doesn’t care about my wrong English, so try to speak as much as possible without being afraid of making a mistake. Don’t be afraid to fail. Be afraid not to try. Since I came to Leiden, indeed I have much more chances to listen English, however, I do not try to speak it as hard as possible I think. Raising a hand and say some argument during classes might be difficult, but writing a dairy is not so ashamed cause no one noticed m mistakes. One of my goals in September is to argue some opinions in seminars. In Japan, I was the leader of international political economy`s seminar and pulled our members, having spoken up proactively and facilitated the discussion. However, to be honest, I could not argue anything during the seminar when I was third grade. So just believe myself and keep making efforts. The higher the wall is, the more sense of accomplishment I will feel when I succeed in climbing the wall.

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