1026 wasted time..

today my life sucked. tried to get up at 6am, but i went out of bed at 8am.

went to the library and studied micro economics and international trade as usual from 9 to 13. After having a lunch, which were same as yesterday like bread and soup and s snack, i went back to the library to continue to study.

however, i dont know why but i could not concentrate on my work, so i left there at 16 and went to a book store to buy "Man`s search for meaning". Needless to explain, this book is also very famous in Japan, which is titled "夜と霧". this means "night and fog". i was surprised to know such a difference between Japanese title and english title.

As i searched on the internet, this Japanese title implies the metaphor describing the people taken to Auschwitz concentration camp by German soldiers in fog. 

 i think this is one of the prestigious book written about Holocaust. Every single person has to read it in order not to make the same mistake which people indeed committed less than 100 years ago. The author was a jewish and really taken to the concentration camp and survived miraculously. He was a phycologist so described not only the behavior of the people inside the camp, but also the state of mind very clearly. He identified three phycological reactions, like shock, apathy, depersonalization. 

I read this book almost four years ago. At that moment, i was waiting for the results of entrance examinations. I studied very hard for a year, so i believed that i would pass it. and fortunately i really made it. But i could not sleep well after finished the exam. it took 2 weeks to get the results. Reading this book enabled me to accept any results cause how worse the result would be, i knew i was absolutely much more free and happy than the person in the concentration camp. 

this book taught me how happy and free i am and how important they are. But this means we lining in the peaceful world have a responsibility to make efforts to enjoy this life and make a better peaceful world.